I was correct the first time I let her go. That was one of the sentence I recalled from what Catriona told me. She really gave me a lesson about friendship. I don’t know whether others handle friendships just by their basic instinct. Clearly, it is not in my case. I did not used to dump friends in whatever situation. That was why I felt guilty and unease the first time I left her then came back to her after one year of separation. However, this time did not work.

I told Catriona the reason I left my friend was because I found out she was a bossy, controlling and also selfish alike person when we were working for a project together. After my discovery, I could not help to be angry with her every time I see her or talk to her. So I decided to leave myself alone and kept away from her. However, after a while, I began to feel guilty and unforgivable myself that I should not leave her as being a loyal friend, until Catriona told me her ideas. She said friends are those who make you feel easy and enjoyable. And friendship is only partly loyalty.

I also told her how depressed I was for my friend’s recent email saying that I was being good to her because I thought she has no other friends she can spend times with. It was totally unfair and humiliated. I was the person came back to her, celebrated her birthday and even introduced the best guy in the world to her. She never satisfied and made it hard work for me as Catriona suggested. Cat also said I am not here to be my friend’s dog or servant.

Cat recommended how I should reply her email and I did what she kindly suggested. However, as being honesty and contradictive to myself, I told Dav what I should not tell for my owns good. I told him that Ali wanted to have dinner with us. That was me, a person always consider others first and do their’ favorite. But now I regretted. Catriona was the person suggesting me let her go after listening me. I should really let her go for caring myself. I am the only person who really knows what I need and care myself more than anyone else which means I can dump anyone in the world but not myself. I will give any excuse to avoid seeing her this Sunday if my feeling will be the same as now.